People have been asking if I was ever going to blog
again…it’s hard to string together sentences in the midst of a very difficult
decision. And sometimes it’s easier to make a decision without the ‘help’ of
others, so keeping it mostly to ourselves was the best way for us to do this.
I thought this blog would flow from the tips of my
fingers, but I am using the backspace a lot, trying to keep my sarcasm and opinions
on this subject in check.
We came to the decision that the kids are going to school
on Wednesday. The princess is old enough for Kindergarten this year and that
frees me up to get a job outside the home. I am very nervous and anxious about
this decision and am hoping that we only have to use public day care until
Christmas. I am hoping that we will be able to pay off a few bills by then and
that we can start Homeschooling again in January.
While at WM the other day buying their school supplies,
I was fighting tears and a desire to sit down and have a huge pity party.
For me it is an issue of faith on both sides! I didn’t
want the decision to send them to school to be a lack of faith that THE
PROVIDER would indeed provide and now that we made the decision I don’t want to
lack the faith that THE CREATOR won’t keep my babies safe. I am trusting that
God will honor my obedience in this and my desire to follow my hubby and allow
him the freedom to lead us.
Tomorrow we will go on our last field trip with our
homeschool friends for the foreseeable future, and we are very excited. There
are so many cool activities planned this year that we will be missing, and I am
bummed. But, I am excited to have a little excess in the budget and to pay down
some bills. Because lets face it, in our move to come up here to get out of
debt we created more debt and while all the bills get paid every month, they
aren’t getting paid down very quickly. And we both feel strongly that we won’t
know our next step until we have cleared up our debt. We both desire to be in
ministry of some sort eventually and know that we must first be free and clear.
