Emotion Surge

When you do life closely with others, there are many highs and lows. People are amazing. Sometimes amazing in a beautiful way. And sometimes amazing in a 'I wish I didn't need to learn this' way. Either way each encounter we have brings us something.
I love to walk with other believers. I love to teach them how to sink their teeth into Truth. I love to encourage them. I love to help guide them and offer insight or ask a timely, thought-provoking question. I am in a season of life where I am surrounded by people, God has so kindly gifted me with a beautiful community.
However, this week has been full of blows. Friends fighting all kinds of difficulties. One of our tribe is fighting for her every breath. And, yet the seconds keep ticking, time keeps moving, I am still wife, mom, employee, friend, daughter, aunt...the many hats that us women wear, they stand still for nothing.
On my knees, through the tears, I keep battling an unseen opponent attempting to wreak havoc in our lives. Today, my family and I headed to the springs to play and enjoy life and clear our minds. I knew we needed to get out, I knew we needed the exercise and the Vitamin D and the laughter and the time to get away. But as we were driving I wanted to turn around and crawl in my bed and cry my heart out.
There is this heaviness all around. I know to Whom I belong. I thank my God for all the years that I have sought and hidden His Word deep in my heart. I know Who wins this war. I know this world is not our home. I know that I am His beloved and that He quite literally died for me. But, when we watch our loved ones suffering...this is tough. I think it seems to be harder to watch my loved ones suffer than to walk through it myself.
I was just remembering that before I knew the Lord, I had so many walls built up, people were not allowed in, I was a shell and trying as hard as I could to not get hurt. God has crushed my walls and shown me such depths of mercy and friendship and His loving kindness that I can't imagine going back to my self-imposed prison. I can't imagine doing life without the people God has put in my life. Jesus promised that in this world there would be heartache. In Psalms it says that He bottles and counts all our tears, they are not wasted. One day we will walk on streets paved with gold and rejoice and huddle at His feet. Until that day, I will put on my battle gear, the full armor of God, and be boots on the ground, the hands and feet of Jesus.
Let's remember to pray for each other. Life is hard. God is good. And the saints need to be encouraged and covered in prayer.
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